So I had an epiphany today. I realized that I don't really care about my art anymore. If I did, I would do it more. I'd focus more time on it. It seems ridiculous to keep drawing out something that's been dead for so long. I think I lost my passion for it in 2006 when I realized I was pregnant. It's so hard to focus on my art when I've got to chase a two year old around and spend time constantly cleaning up the little messes she makes.

I can't possibly still love making art because if I did, then it would be something I'd do everyday. It's not so I can't love it anymore. Instead I find myself delving into video games and books more. I'm a bit disappointed I didn't have this epiphany six months ago before I began wasting $150 a month on art supplies that have just piled up and haven't been used. Or for wasting my money to pay for this stupid gallery here on DA only to not utilize any of the functions it offers. I'm an idiot and should be shot. All the money I've spent on this uselessness over the last six months could have been saved. I could have replaced my broken iPod or a dozen other things. Hell I could have just left in the bank for when my fiancee returns from Iraq, or I could have stowed it away to keep in case I needed to make a clean break if he came back the way he did from his first tour.

Basically what I'm saying is, it's time to accept that I'm not loving this anymore. I found this out when my muse asked me to draw something for her last week. I drew it and that was it, there was no passion in it, there was no fire. It's gone. So I'm giving up and moving on. I'll always keep that pieces that mean something to, he'll I'll probably keep it all and stow it away in my closet. I may get the flame to make art again someday, but it's over for me now. I've removed all my original art from my gallery. I'll continue to submit fanart and leave my current fanart up until my subscription expires, just so the rest of the money I spent on this money doesn't go to waste.

It's been a fun run, but I'm past it. Thanks to everyone who's been watching me and favoriting my work.